Step 1

Funny to think we want so much more for ourselves, but in retrospect we make up excuses to stay in the same spot.

We are too afraid to acknowledge our faults and almost justify the facts and think that this is what we deserve.

No what we deserve is to be far more happy than we are now.

I have been in the same damn race that has become my life and it's like I have just been sitting on the side lines waiting for the energy to just get up and Run.

Run towards a future I know I what and can have.

I am done with the bullshit excuses I keep making for myself and I am doing something about it.

Life was never meant to be easy.

You're meant to fall on your face, it's just a matter of when you want to get up.

It's one hell of life and it's about time I started mine.

Cheated Hearts

I know I can't get attached & I don't intend on trying too.
But I can't help it when I know there is something there.
i know we could talk for hours but both us hold back, because we know there is an expiration date on this.
Trust me I am not investing, I am just merely imagining how it could be.
Were good where we are.
Close but far enough away to not get the wrong idea.
I like getting lost in your eyes and getting caught up in the sheets with your arms around me, but trust me I won't be the one to fall.
At the end of this I won't look back but I know you'll be wondering why I didn't.

"It's not going to be easy, it's going to be real hard. But I am willing to do that, because I want you. I want all of you, forever you & me."

-Noah, The Notebook

All Black Everything-Lupe Fiasco

Down the rabbit hole

"I said its outside let me go swimming in your eyes

We been running for awhile, why don't you lay down and I'll make you smile

I could never ask for nothing better than this

Its just tequila and the beach, it's salty when we kiss"

I am in a deep hole of emotions for you & I can't help but smile.

You are what I needed & always wanted.

In case you were wondering.

We hold onto the things that hurt the most because at one point they made us happy.
But you did nothing but pull me back into a person I never wanted to be.
I love who I am now & would never want to be the person I would have been with you.


But thank you.
Thank you for breaking me so I can be who I am today.
Without those tears and days of saying "fuck you" to the world, I really wouldn't be as strong.
Strong enough to walk away from something that frankly was never good for me.


I hope one day you realize all You have done & remember you lost a good thing.
But most of all I hope you realize you did me a favor.


So thank you.

Sometimes you just have to say "Fuck You"

& remember You are probably better off anyways.

Don't let the bitterness take away your sweetness.

We all got baggage you just have to remember how much weight you really want to carry with you on this adventure we call life.

So fuck the people who say you can't and the people who say you can.

Live life how you'd want to remember it.